Dear Reema.
Reema Rani, Prem gave me the chance to write to you today. It was unexpected but I’m so glad that he did, I didn’t realise how much I needed this. I know it’s been a long time and that it’s my fault in many ways but I still think about you more than you will ever know. I carry you in my soul.
I wish you could have met Prem. I know you’re the reason he came into my life because you shaped me and who I am. I built my life around you and I never thanked you for that but I think that’s why he chooses to be with me. I wish you could have met Prem, I know you would have got on like wild fire. You’d chat and he’d listen about your college days and help with your play. You’d laugh like the Hogwarts Express when he is silly and he’d mess with you even if you were stropping. You would both sing and dance and the world would join in. I can imagine he’d be right there with you in ways that maybe I couldn’t. Sometimes you’d think he was too loud but you’d giggle when he jokes and grins. Reema, did I tell you the first time I knew that he was someone I wanted in my life was when he cooked pasta at the flat? Not quite like Nigella but he’s more like Gordon Ramsay anyway. He knows us more than I know myself.
Reems, you still come into my dreams ever so quietly. I’m not scared anymore. It feels calm and back to normal when I see your face. I need you there. There is so much I still need to share with you. Did you hint for Prem to propose in Italy with your secret admirer? I think you helped to find our house too. We are building our home, and guess what? We have a walk-in wardrobe, just like Princess Diaries. Our favourite series has Milly from Because I Said So, it’s called This is Us and you’re still a part of us.
Reema I can’t even begin to think about my wedding without you. We would have walked down the aisle to the Matilda song in a beautiful outfit. You would have picked the music and Prem would have given in to you I know it. I know Mum and Dad need you more than ever and please hold their hand as we make these new steps.
We love you and we miss you.